Obssessed!!!

I came home to find her giving me this sad face and red eyes... And of course I couldn't not ask her "what's wrong mum? what happened?"... and I was surprised to find a flow of tears and extreme sadness over the fact that I'm spending the weekend (friday and saturday) in the North Coast with my friends... She simply said: "I can't take it without you"...

My mum's love for me is maddness...

The thing is, we are both so emotional and romantic, and because we don't have anyone to exercise the romance and emotions on, we love each other so much that it is starting to ruin both our lives... Don't get me wrong or get a dirty idea about our relationship... I'm serious about this and i dont know what to do about it...

I tell her absolutely everything in my life... I love her more than anything in the world... I care for her, take her out, have fun with her, make her happy, amuse her, listen to her problems and comfort her... I'm definitely her crying shoulder and her most trusted friend and advisor... She is totally dependent on me when it comes to anything in the world... I do her absolutely everything... And I like it because I'm the type of person who is giving, loving, emotional, and loves making people happy... And the fact that i failed in a couple of relationships made me dedicate my "giving" energy to the people who deserve such giving... and definitely my mother is worth much much more than what I give her...

But the thing is, she became obssessive... I can't go out because she gets bored and misses me when im not around.. I can't travel anywhere because when i do, she get pains in her stomach and temperature and spends days in bed unable to move a muscle... JUST BECAUSE I'M GOING AWAY FOR THE WEEKEND... she actually Cried knowing that I'm going to the North Coast, which is 3 hours away from my house by car.... What if i get married and leave the house for good?? What if I decided to pursue my PhD and leave to the U.S. or the U.K??? How will she cope with that?

I simply have no idea what to do... Should I ignore those tears and leave and have a life and let her cope with the fact that I'm away? Or should I dedicate my life to her and ignore all my dreams and future plans and my fun time? Should I be tolerant? Should I accept it? Should I rebel?

Mummeeeeeee... I love you, but you have to give me some space and freedom to live!