I am TERRIFIED!!!

Health... I never thought of health as something of importance... It is something that I have always ignored and never cared to care or worry about... The act of breathing, or chewing, or even going to the bathroom, were normal body functions that I never thought of their worth... Till my mum got sick and I realised how weak and fragile a person can be and how important every part and function of the body is... God gave us the greatest gift of all, which is a healthy body... and if a small part doesn't function well, everything else is affected, even one's life...

My mother's sickness is terrifying me... I have 2 younger brothers and a sister and I have to be calm and show them that there is nothing wrong and everything will be ok, but I'm scared and can't take such role anymore... Plus, I have to cheer her up so as to lift her spirits to help her heal quickly ISA... I have to show my father that I am a responsible person and can take care of the house and his kids... But i am terrified and the word Terrified is a small word to describe how I feel.. I am thanking God for everything, but I am still terrified and feeling helpless... I can't work, sleep, eat, or concentrate on anything but the fact that my mother is in the hospital... I sometimes even miss prayers because I'm not concentrating... Even wearing my clothes before I go out is something I forget to do...

I wish someone would hug me, calm me down and tell me that everything will be ok... I feel like all the pressure and fear is on me and I have to calm everyone down, when I'm terrified myself...

El7amdolelah 3ala kol 7al.. ya rab ya shafeee