zehe2t

Ana khalas mesh adra asta7mel aktar men keda...
I am about to burst... SHOUT with rage... cry with fear, sorrow, boredom, pain, worry, so many things that I dont know what to do about... I am so damn tired of all the problems I am facing... I know I shouldnt be feeling that way or saying that, but I am tired, and i need to let it out... I need to find a crying shoulder... Someone who cares... I need someone to actually care and listen and help me out... ana te3ebt of being the one who always cares and listens and stands up for people and be by their sides, but when it comes to me being in trouble or needing somebody, I find all those people so far away, not even willing to take a step for me... to give me a minute of listening...

Its my mum, and dad, and sister, and brothers, and relatives, and friends, and colleagues... Everyone is so damn capable of using me, but helping me out, making me feel better about myself, that was NEVER an option...

I am the one who has always been the fucking crying shoulder for everyone... But was I able to cry and have a caring hug?? Even my mother was never good at being a crying shoulder...

ana ta3bana... ta3bana awi... zehe2t men el nas, wel za7ma, wel shoghl, wel khena2, wel dawsha, wel polution, wel safa7, wel cancer, wel heartbreaks, wel fa2r wel ham... zehe2t zehe2t awi...

El7amdolelah 3ala kol 7al..