unplug my head

I want a crying shoulder... I want a biiiiiiiiiiiiig hug where I can forget the whole world...
I want to sleep for a looooooooooong time to make up for all the sleepless nights... I want to scream out loud till I have no more voice... I want to run till I can't catch my breath or feel my legs.... I want to cry till I run out of tears... I want to make everybody happy... I want to tell K, K and T how much I love them, miss them and care for them without them getting me wrong or thinking that I'm falling for them... I wish I could tell R and T how much I hate them...

I dont know what is going on or happening in this head of mine... It is making those ugly and unfamiliar thoughts and never rests... All depressed, all dark and all disappointed from the whole world...

I want to leave everything and be alone for a long while... I want to take care of and look after myself... I want to eat a nice hot meal without being scared of getting fat or getting cancer... I want to quit my job and get rid of my ugly responsibilities and the feeling of boredom I have every single day... I want to have a new home; my own home...

I wish someone could unplug my head... I wish I could find an "Off" button for it...