Hopelessly Romantic

I've been trying to fight the way I am for so long now... But today I realised that this particular characteristic of mine can never be changed...
I am emotional and romantic... This is how I am and how Ive always been... I use my heart in everything I do... Every step I take... I love everything around me and build emotions towards everything... My office, my colleagues, the office boys, the parking people, and of course my friends, family, relatives, and even objects... My computer, my teddy bear, my books... I simply LOVE whatever that is close to me...

Love is a great feeling and I simply use it in all aspects of my life and I have no idea how to just stop doing that... It is wrong to be emotional, especially at work when you have to be serious, harsh and want to have a successful career... I tried so many times to hide my feelings, to become a different person, to avoid my emotions, but I simply couldn't... It is very tough for a person like me to hide his emotions or change...

Emotions and love are the only reason I'm alive till this day... Without it I wouldn't have become what I am now... I love my professors, thats why I succeed... I love my parents and obey them for that... I love my friends, thats why I still gather them till this day... I love my boss and thats why I am still working in the same place for 2 years now... I love endlessly... and the only thing that bothers me and makes me want to change is that I never get the same amount of love back... not even a tiny bit of it... I give endlessly and enjoy making people happy and care for everyone... I love seeing people happy, successful, in love, and enjoying their lives...

I shouldnt change right? I am not that bad... I just will suffer for the rest of my life because no one will love or give the way I do, so I will always be expecting too much and never getting it... and giving too much and not getting as much in return... I will continue loving and not being loved back... I will continue falling and hurting myself the way I do... and I dont care anymore because it is ME... I cant hide from me or change me... Have to accept it and bear the consequences...