Isolation to find me...

Working in down town Cairo means no parking...
So I park everyday 5 to 7 mins away from my office...
I never was upset about whatever I face while walking to work everyday... The garbage thrown everywhere, the beggers, informal sellers of chinese products running away from the policy, even being harrassed every morning is something I usually blamed on myself and not men (although I hate men for doing what they do)...

Anyway, today I decided to isolate myself wherever I am...
I closed the car windows and had the music loud just to enter a world away from the real world around me.... Also, I decided to put on my headphones to isolate myself from the passers by, from the loud car horns, from people swearing, and from the verbal harrassement I experience every morning... I didnt want to even hear the beggers wishing me health and safety...
So I did... I listened to a very romantic, out of this world song.. But I was still in the world I was trying to hide from... The eyes couldnt perform the isolation needed... I couldnt hide from crossing the street, from seeing the eyes of men looking at me, from seeing couples holding hands and whispering sweet words...

I wasnt loking for isolation because I'm tired of whatever I see, hear or experience... I just felt like being alone.... was searching for myself... However, I realised that isolation is impossible... I couldnt isolate myself at home nor in the street or at work... Although I can just avoid hearing or seeing whatever that is surrounding me, I will always be physically there... So should I just let go of this idea of needing to be alone?!?!?!?!