This is exactly how I feel... SOoOoOoOoOo furious, so confused, so irritated, so annoyed by everything around me...

Going to class on a thursday night sucks big time... I have been reading stupid stuff for the last whole week about politics and policy making and agenda setting... political science is the crapiest subject I've ever studied... and I end up doing really bad on my presentation... I talked for exactly ONE minute... I suck...

Having T call me and talk to me and remind me of all the nice things we used to share made me feel all lonely and depressed and confused one more time.. Although I know its all over and I am not thinking of the issue anymore.. And although I want his friendship and really care to keep it.. BUT still I felt like I wanted more, although I shouldnt want anything in the first place...

And having her with him.. Oh My God.. although they both mean nothing to me... Actually they are good friends of mine and I want something to happen between them.. But I still felt like OMG, what is with you people? and what is going on with my head... Why am I so troubled!!?!

And N is leaving to another country and leaving me all alone... He is the only person who used to call and check on me... He is like my son.. My only son... and now he is leaving for a whole year...

And this sinus I'm suffering from.. Why the hell does it create this horrible migrane? It is killing me... the doctor says I'm also anaemic... which means I have to eat all the kinds of food that I hate so much...

And the weather, it is so damn hot.. I cant fast in that horrible weather.. not being able to drink water sucks big time... and having to stand in the kitchen for hours with the oven on makes me so damn irritated... I am tired of all that crap..

And my prayers are tasteless this year... I pray as if it is a normal habit I do.. as if I'm eating or driving... no emotions, no sense, no kheshoo3 watsoever.. I feel absolutely nothing... and I dont know how to get back to the normal me...

My days are so busy... I do a zillion thinks in the same instant till the second i go to bed and even when I am in bed, I dream and talk in my sleep and wake up to my very loud voice and annoying dreams... I am all restless..

Am I crazy??? Am I PMSing 2 weeks before the due time?!?! What the hell is going on?!?!?!!!