I got rid of the weak me

Finally...
I did it... I finally took a stand and ended one of the things that were driving me mad...

Unfortunately, I'm the kind of person that tolerates a lot without complaining... I keep all the rage deep inside and try to act like there is nothing wrong with me... But it kills me deep inside and I end up miserable... And the person causing me the misery keeps doing whatever he/she does over and over not knowing that I'm being hurt...

So yesterday, she (whom I call the bitch) calls again... She is the ex-GF of my ex... She is the one he left me for... Its not like I mind, he can do whatever he pleases, but she shouldn’t be my friend for any reason on this planet... (This girl is part of many of my writings I know... I probably bored blogger.com itself from my same old story.. so anyway)

So she calls yesterday and is like "lets go out, we work in the same area, we can meet up after work sometime for coffee... why don’t u ever call me an arrange something?"... And I found myself trembling and asking her in a very polite way that I cant be her friend... I told her that we cant be friends because we have a common person between us and I am not ready to be her friend... I told her that I spent 2 years being in misery because of her and I am not willing to spend the rest of my life in misery... And when she said that it is not her fault that all this happened and that he is not in her life anymore, I was about to kill her, but I calmly thanked her for being a such a good and caring friend (yeah WHATEVER) and apologized...

And I hung up on the pain... I hung up on the suffering... I hung up on something I wasn’t powerful enough to get rid of or get out of my life... I finally was strong enough to do what I feel like doing and say what I wanted to say... I was trembling but was over the moon that I am finally free of her... and that I am not weak anymore... I took my right, I asked for it and took it by force... And although I'm feeling so damn guilty, I feel happy that I'm changing into a stronger person who can deal with difficult situations...