I suddenly felt all alone for no reason I could recall of...

I was so alone... I am alone...

I spent the whole day out... with my friends, doing some errands, then doing some social obligations, then visiting the doctor for some nose problems... And on my way home, I felt so damn lonely I couldnt take it... So I grabbed my phone and started calling M.. and he didnt pick up, then MM, then K, then S... But they all didnt pick up... And I guess that was a sign... Or maybe some higher power telling me that I will be alone and this is my destiny... Or maybe Im just being too dramatic... But the four of them didnt answer... All the men in my life werent there... And they will never be...

All of a sudden I felt like I am in need of a male figure... Someone I can feel comfortable with... Someone to hug me so tight without talking or asking me whats wrong... Some man who would listen without criticizing and without commenting... A big hug... Not a hug, actually I want someone to embrace me... An embrace that would last till the morning comes... A feeling of love, support, security, home.... I miss feeling like I'm home...

This is not home... Not my home... not anymore... I really need to find a home...