Independence

...is all I need

Total and complete independence... From my family, from love, from emotions altogether, from people, from friends, from all... Being able to live life without having to have somebody, whoever that somebody might be...

Independence... Why do I need men? They end up using me one way or another... Father, Brothers, Friends, Boyfriend, Husband, Cousin... Any man on earth can be abusive, can be harsh, can be animalistic, can be depressing and cause me pain... So why want them when all they cause is shit? Wanting a hug? an embarce? love and affection? That is usually not what they want to give, and if they give it, they only do so to get to something else... They dont give us what we are looking for, so to hell with them all... I really want to be independent...

Parents, they are so demanding... Wanting me always to be perfect and be the way they want me to be... They pressurise me, they abuse me, they stress me out, and they overload me with responsibilities... I love them and respect them, but I am tired of all the crap I have to deal with and I decided to be independent...

Friends, they suck the most... They are never there, and they are only there when they need me, they need someone to listen and care... But when I am desperately in need of them, they never show up... I tend to give and forgive and care, when nobody does anything in return... So why they hell do I need them? I want to be independent...

And a partner? Abusive... A brother? Abusive... Even a boss is abusive...

I cant live in this place... I wanna leave...